Embrace Your Destiny: Rant With Lucifer (aka MS)

Walking solo

I was trying to copy my memoir piece into Docs when, something happened with the file. It disappeared! I couldn't deal with doing it over that late in the day. The next morning, this is what I wrote:

 “Lucifer, you struck a low blow yesterday when you deleted my memoir piece. I think you did that on purpose. Did you want to show me who’s in charge? I bet you didn’t like how I portrayed you. Well, if you didn’t like yesterday’s piece, get ready for this one. I know you for the dark element you are into my otherwise very nice life.

You didn’t like the independence and confidence I felt after doing my first solo walk.  Admit it. You intentionally create  doubts, fears, worries, and other bad thoughts I have about walking and falling. That way you can keep me under your control.”

 

 

My computer space

Not to be chastised without rebuttal, Lucifer counters with, “I didn’t do anything with your memoir piece. You probably just can’t find it. You have your cognitive processes well in hand. You seem to do fine with the psychological issues as well. I try to get you into a negative mindset, but somehow, you manage to override my best efforts there. But, you are vulnerable on electronic  and  computer skills. You can just bet I’ll keep interfering with all your cognitive and psychological processes relative to those areas. Just a little glitch in a program does the trick to set you off.”

“Lucifer, you are not only insidious, your are underhanded and devious. I really don’t like you. Usually doing hot yoga keeps you in your place. That place would be subdued and out of the way. That regimen calms me and loosens all my joints and ligaments. Then at the end, I breathe out the negative influence of you on my mind and body everyday. There is no place in my life for your interference. Go away!”

Lucifer is strong willed and persistent. “Judy, it’s going to take a lot more practice and hard work on the computer for you to get rid of me. You may have eliminated some of the mind fog, but I can always send in confusion, doubt and disorder to mess you up. Once you get off track, you’re done. Get it?”

My chiropractic adjustment

“No, Lucifer, I don’t get it. I have a big team of people! You can’t override my people. I call in my people when I need my body tuned up. I call my people to help with computer issues. I call in people when I need encouragement. Recently, I called on my readers to give me blog feedback. I learned a lot from their feedback. Best of all, my blog is being read by lots of people. My Memoir group and my Toastmaster group are weekly reminders that I have help. I am also valued for the help I give. So, you may try to discourage me, but you can’t on this one.”

Lucifer had to pause a moment on this idea. Then,  he countered with, “I agree. I can’t overcome people. People are a powerful force against me. Let's call a truce for now.”

 

 

I can live with that for now. I know he attacks my physical efforts because they are most vulnerable. But, I think he knows I won’t tolerate his negative interference in my cognitive, emotional, and psychological spaces. He is insidious and is always lurking. I won’t be forgetting that.