Embrace Your Destiny: Be Audacious

Doing yoga on a cruise

“Ms. Lucifer, we’ve been trying to get along for twenty years. You were the audacious one during the first half of our journey. You were bold. You ruled me completely. I’ll admit that you were ever present in my mind. I didn’t like you then. Now, I feel like I have come to terms with you in the second half of our acquaintance. Now, I am being audacious in dealing with you. Don't you like this cool word, "audacious" that I learned in Toastmasters? Toastmasters stimulates my audacity. I’m definitely keeping you at bay.”

Ms. Lucifer was quick to note some setbacks. She said, “As I I recall, being audacious has gotten you into trouble. Aren’t I right? 

Embrace Your Destiny: Just Let Go!

 

My Meditation Place

Ohmmmmm, ohmmmmmm, ohmmm. My singing bowl lulls me into a peaceful meditative state. It feels good to let go, really let go. This is a space where there’s no right or wrong, no judgement, no worries. It’s just an inward focused peace.

 

I started meditating as a mindful healing practice when we lived at North Topsail Beach. I had read about meditation as a good tool to manage symptoms of Multiple Sclerosis. Needing some guidance, I started looking. I didn’t know what I was looking for but when I saw it, I knew. On Wall Street in Asheville, I saw a window display with Singing Bowls in a store with an India motif. I said to Donnie, “Let’s go in and learn about these bowls.”

Embrace Your Destiny: Rant With Lucifer (aka MS)

Walking solo

I was trying to copy my memoir piece into Docs when, something happened with the file. It disappeared! I couldn't deal with doing it over that late in the day. The next morning, this is what I wrote:

 “Lucifer, you struck a low blow yesterday when you deleted my memoir piece. I think you did that on purpose. Did you want to show me who’s in charge? I bet you didn’t like how I portrayed you. Well, if you didn’t like yesterday’s piece, get ready for this one. I know you for the dark element you are into my otherwise very nice life.

You didn’t like the independence and confidence I felt after doing my first solo walk.  Admit it. You intentionally create  doubts, fears, worries, and other bad thoughts I have about walking and falling. That way you can keep me under your control.”

Embrace Your Destiny: What Am I Doing?

 

Memoir Group Zoom Meeting

"Let’s see. This piece is going to be about memoir group. Our zoom meeting is tomorrow and I can’t go empty handed.Their feedback keeps me going.”

I have this conversation with myself often because I get confused. My purpose for doing memoir and blogging is to tell my Multiple Sclerosis story.